bullet train

time passed by like a bullet train, seems like yesterday i was living in scotland, going to school, playing football at the park until 10pm (in UK, around summer, 10pm is still not dark :P). but its been 16 years since i've moved back to malaysia and living a busy life, studying and working.

life has been a roller coaster for me. never had been enough to fulfil my hollowed heart. always chasing wealth, chasing this and that and the list goes on.

i've been living in-denial, forgetting the most precious thing that i wanted most, which is redha Allah. all this while i've been putting a side my interest and forgotten the things i liked most.

no more, my heart say. put a stop to it. you will still find happiness as long you have Him by your side. hopefully He will guide me still tomorrow, for i shall not regret for any decision i take in the future. inshaAllah.

A plan for all

Allah SWT always has something for you,

a key for every problem,

a light for every shadow,

a relief for every sorrow and;

a plan for every tomorrow

- Islamic thoughts

30

seperti semalam saja aku kecil berlari, hari ini aku sudah mencapai umur 30. berpusu2 message masuk mengucapkan hari lahir, aku bersyukur kerana masih lagi orang mengingati diri aku. ibu menghantar sms sungguh sayu, "sudah 30 anak mak, semoga panjang umur murah rezeki, jadilah insan yang bertakwa dan yang mencari redha Allah".

harini perasaan aku tiba-tiba rasa sayu dan takut. bergelemang airmata, termenung jauh akan kematian. semakin berumur, semakin dekat dengan mati. 

masih banyak taubat perlu aku lakukan, masih banyak hutang harus aku selesaikan, semoga aku sempat melakukan semuanya, sebelom tamat riwayat aku sebagai insan dimuka bumi ini.

setahun sudah masa berlalu lagi, semoga dapat aku mengharungi tahun hadapan, menambah ibadat, menambah takwa didalam hati. InsyaAllah.

Random thoughts

wow, my blog is rusty :) been so busy lately with work, always at clients place. currently doing audit in shah alam, a listed company with 7 subsidiaries. takes a huge effort really. i'm always working late most of the time, reaches home at 11pm or 12pm or 2pm. being an external auditor is crazy. before hand, i'd only heard from friends that auditors in big firms work so late, and sometimes until dawn but now i'm facing the same experience. haha~ but i guess it's ok, i don't really mind anything any more. i just do my job without complaining, which is really good for me, so it seems. :P

yesterday was the 1st exam day for our ACCA progress test (for anyone who doesn't know what ACCA is, please click here). it wasn't that bad really. but the funny thing was, i didn't have time to study at all, but manage to answer all the 5 questions. i really thank Allah SWT for helping though, but also can give credit to my lecturer for giving such a good lecture, i answered today mainly based on her 'bebel' in all the 3 times classes. hopefully i will pass, that's all i need. i mean i don't want to sit again of course.

there's still a long way yet though. the final exam is in june. but i really enjoyed my day today. maybe because i managed to answer the exam questions this time, or maybe i felt relieved because i simply know in my heart that i will pass this paper in the coming june exam, and also all the papers to come (5 in total!!). i really believed that, if efforts, mind and soul are put into one, inshaAllah i will reach my goal of becoming a chartered accountants in 3 years time.

today i thought, "hm..time really flies". in 11 days i'll be turning 30! OMG!! haha~ nah, i don't feel anything in fact. just a normal day again. at work, people think i'm 23, and when they know my actual age, they would say, "no la, don't tipu la". and i would say "if u don't belief me, i take it as a compliment" and they would say, "u don't look ur age", and i would say, "i know" :) alhamdulillah. haha~

off to sleep.

till next time.

salam.