fate

i woke up this morning thinking about this one girl i met on campus. she's a good friend of mine and still is. she hated me at first and she had her reasons for it. it was a silly one to be honest but i won't mention it here thou..=)

there was definitely something going on between us but none of us did actually said anything (i tot so anyway). we used to talk at the library for hours, exchanging our thoughts. one day we went to the beach. it was her last day on campus as she was moving school (UiTM). while at the beach we talked until she popped this one question that now i find quite hilarious. she said "who am i to u?" at that moment without hesitation i said "i am a friend of course" she then changed the subject and that was it. i went home thinking. was there some kind of message behind that question. some kind of clue. so i told my friends what had happened, they all said i was stupid!! damn. maybe i was. or maybe i was not. who knows. ha ha!

well, we all have our mistakes in life or maybe it's not really a mistake to begin with. we always say "what if i did or said differently" and "what if this" and "what if that" and it goes on and on until you can really accept that all this things happening to you is already written on paper by the creator Him-self. no one can change that fact. the best thing we can do is to move on and hope for a better day tomorrow.

by the way that girl got married a couple of years ago and i didn't really feel anything. i was happy for her as a friend of course. it wasn't meant to be between us. many don't agree and one can debate about it but that's what i call fate.