sleep talk

it's been almost 2 months since i got some good sleep. now with black circle around my eyes, obviously i need some rest. i'm not exactly doing anything, just surfing the internet and downloading mp3's. my housemates sleeps very early. i can hear them snores sometimes ha ha.

the funny thing is, my housemates not only snores but they sometimes talk in their sleep as well. there's this one guy, he sometimes repeat some lines from the Japanese action series in his sleep, like those "power rangers" action series. he sometimes get up from his sleep and say some lines and then off to sleep again. this guy really like the series so much, right from his childhood until now. i think there's nothing wrong with it. the thing is, we can never grow up even though the time has well past behind us. like myself, i still read mangas and watch animes. (naruto and bleach). i just can't get enough. it's not like i've not grown up or anything but it's those hobbies you just can't simply put away. ha ha.

anyway, i too talk in my sleep and worst of all sleep walk at night. i was caught once getting up from bed and was searching for something, when a friend asked me what i was looking for, i said nothing and went back to sleep. he said it was some scary moment. he freaked out really. the next morning he told me what had happened the night before and i told him that he was making it up. i didn't remember a single thing. i asked him was he sure that it was me that he saw or was it someone else or 'some thing' (i just got the chills). hm..better not talk about it around this time of hour..=)

i guess everyone talks in their sleep sometimes when they are really tired. it's quite normal really. so everyone get some sleep. don't stay up too long. good night and sweet dreams.

naib johan futsal

pink panther name team ni. aku dan yg baju hijau tu diajak join team ni 3 hari sebelum perlawanan. surprisingly kami dapat pegi sampai final. aku dapat jaring satu gol mase quarter. kami menang 3-0. semi final aku score gol kemenangan pada minit terakhir. time tu tgh seri 1-1, kalu penalty tuk penentuan ke final belom tentu bole menang. sb anything can happen in penalty shoot out. nasib bek aku score. haha.

mase final aku tak dapat nk nolong sebab aku tak men full game. biasenya team aku kat shah alam, aku selalu je men penuh tapi team ni baru je kenal aku so diorg kurang percaya la aku bole bantu diorg, padahal kalu bagi peluang apa salahnya. mane tau kot2 kuor skill menarik, cewah..bukan nk bangga hehe..tapi takpe la janji ade gak kenangan men futsal bersama team ni. walaupon tak beberape puas hati tp atleast dpt kenalan baru. diorg baik2 sumenya.

gol keeper kami (yg baju hijau) biasenya men posisi striker. tp sb takde keeper so terpaksa la dia jd keeper. sbrnya aku suke partnership ngn si baju hijau tu kalu men futsal sebelum2 ni. tp kali ni tak dpt la plak. dia jd keeper mg best, aku bangga ah sb dia roomate aku hahaha! anyway kami kalah 3-0 mase final. hm..

pesanan tuk semua: kalu nk amik org luar join team kita, perlulah percaya kebolehan org tu, kalu tak percaya, kenape nk amik in the first place, tak yah amik trus lagi bagus, bukan sekadar nk penuhkan team je tp tuk bersama2 berjuang mencapai kemenangan. baru org kate "a good management and leadership"..fikir-fikirkan lah..=)

14th of february

Once again it’s the 14th of February and once again I’m a year older. I don’t feel that old though haha. Time just swept by like the ocean’s tide. My days are just the same. I was actually playing Futsal (5 a side football) on my birthday. I still remember back in school, mom used to make me a birthday cake and we all sat eating the sweet cake she had made. Since I’m all grown, she stopped making those cakes. Anyway I live far away from my parents now and rarely come home, only when I have time.

Once again it’s the 14th of February and I’m a year older. Nothing really had changed. It was sweet how my two sisters called me on the phone to wish Happy Birthday. They sounded really happy, hearing them I felt happy.

Once again it’s the 14th of February and I’m a year older. I’m listening to my favorite girl sing, Ingrid Michaelson, on my new PC. Well, it’s not exactly new because my sister gave it to me, it was hers before hand. I just love all Ingrid’s songs. Haha!

Once again it’s the 14th of February and I’m a year older.

solat istikharah

suke kat seseorang perkara biasa dalam hidup ni. tak salah kalu kite suke. bagi aku kalu suke bagitau je org tu. buat ape nk simpan2. buat ape nk kias2. kalu simpan lame2 perasaan tu buat sakit hati je. rasenya takde ubat kot kat hospital. haha. kalu tak ckp skrg mesti selalu tertanya-tanya nnti, kalu tak ckp mane kite nak tau isi hati dia jgk kn? tapi kalu dia tak suke kite balik, ape nk buat, move on la, terima hakikat dan jadi kawan biase je..tak salah pon..tapi paling tak best org tu plak buat2 lari, buat dek je pas tau isi hati kita..tension je..kalu dh tau jgn la lari..relax ah..sporting ah..huhu~ aku pelik sebenarnya tapi ni la hakikat manusia..tapi aku tak salahkan diorg la..org len2..takpe..takpe..=)

dulu aku ade suke kat kawan aku ni. dia tau aku suke kat dia, dan time tu dia dah ade bf. aku tak penah pon ckp kat dia aku suke. (dulu aku pengecut, tp skang dah berani skit kot hehehe) paling best kawan aku ni, walaupon dia dah tau tp dia tak penah lari dari aku, dia selalu balas sms aku, kalu jumpe mesti dia tegur aku dulu, walaupon aku selalu buat2 tak nampak dia hahahaha..kalu dia nmpak aku mesti dia panggil aku dari jauh..tanya kabar la ape la..(hm..tringat plak kat ko seh..) dulu aku ade gk la call dia sekali sekale, dia memang best, sporting habis, aku tak kesah pon borak pasal bf dia, ade gak la tanya dia bila nk kawin, dia relax je citer..(lame tak contact ko..dah kawin ke blom ko ni..) aku memang respect ah pompuan macam ni..sporting. yg paling penting dia tau dia ade bf dan tak mungkin dia akan berubah hati. susah ah nk cari kawan cmtu. lame2 dari ade hati, berubah jadi respect. hilang sume perasaan yg suke2 tu cume tinggal perasaan berkawan je. entahla, susah nk explain perasaan cmni (tp mmg takde jodoh pon, so aku kawan je la hehe..kita kena terima jawapan Allah!!) aku rase kadang2 kite ni suke kat org sekejap je. ade org kate kalu suke sekejap je maknenya org tu bkn “the one” atau pon dlm base melayu “takde jodoh” tapi tak tau la kan. aku pon bukan arif sgt dlm hal ni..hehe..

bab suke ni bukan senang. kalu dah suke (sebagai seorg Islam) byk espek kita kena tgk. yg paling penting aku nk highlight - diredha Allah. hubungan tu kenalah Dunia-Akhirat. tp zaman skrg ni aku tak faham. ade yg nk couple sebab nk “dapat” je. bile dapat terus blah. bukan nak serius. bukan nak kekal.. “dapat” ape? yg ni..lu pikir la sendiri..hehe..pastu ade jugak nk cari bf je atau gf je, tp tak tau kenape. ikut trend kot..hmm..org len ade awek nk awek gak..org len ade bf nk bf gak..atau pon..best tgk org couple, nk rase gk cmne..yg paling best, “aku takleh la hidup tanpe bf, aku kena gak ade org sayang..” aduih..ni sume aku penah dengar dgn telinga aku, tapi ade lagi yg lebih teruk tp malas ah nk citer byk2..=)

about cinta. mula2 kita suke, lame2 jadi cinta. tapi bg aku cinta itu lah sbrnya mesti kerana Allah. kalu bukan kerana Allah kerana sape lagi? xkan kerana bf? xkan kerana gf? hm..sbrnya bila suke atau jatuh cinta, kenalah bertanya pada yg maha esa betul ke tak si yg dicinta tu..solat istikharah dulu kot2 bukan orngnya..byk soalan kena kita tanya pada Allah. “adakah dia jodohku?”, “adakah ini ujian bagiku?” adakah dan adakah..kalu tak tanya mane kita nk tahu cinta tu cinta sejati. mungkin jugak mainan iblis semata-mata yg mengacau perasaan kita dan ingin kita terjerumus ke lembah maksiat, angau dan sebagainya. adakah kita pasti sume perasaan yg indah itu adalah yg kekal dan diredha Allah? sume soalan2 ni harus bermain diminda kita. kalu tak sekarang bila lagi? hm..nak hidup dgn yg cinta tu seumur hidup beb, bukan main-main. bukan “one off thing” or a “fling”. bukan sekadar nk jadi bf or gf. penahkah terlintas difikiran? kalu blom, start2 la pikir..hehehe..

solat istikharah ni bila dh buat, byk bentuk jawapan kita boleh terima. ada yg mimpi jumpe si dia. ade yg dapat jawapan dalam bentuk kejadian, perasaan hati dan sebagainya. yg ni korg kena decide sendiri ape jawapan dari Allah. baik atau buruk itu sendiri punya tafsir. pastu nk terima ke tak terpulang. kadang2 org ni, bila dah dapat jawapan, takleh terima plak. sedih tak tentu arah. jadi sewel. haha. betul..aku dah pernah jumpe org cmni..sbrnya tak bole la cmtu kan. kenalah redha dengan jawapan yg Allah bagi. name pon istikharah beb..=)

istikharah ni kadang2 ambik mase sangat lame. ade org dapat semalaman je. ade org dpat selepas seminggu. kita kena sgt sabar bila istikharah. kena truskan, atau buat sekadar yg mampu. tp mesti ikhlas dan redha. Allah akan bagi gak jawapan tu. mungkin esok. mungkin lusa. mungkin minggu depan. mungkin next month. mungkin next year. mugkin next 3 years. who knows?! Allah sgt misteri dengan cara-Nya yg tersendiri. jgn putus asa. kena “sabar dan ikhlas”

ramai kawan-kawan aku takut nk solat istikharah. mcm2 alasan. cmni bunyi nye:

“kalu aku nmpk org len cmne?” atau pon

“tak nak ah, takut siot” atau pon

“hm..aku takde mase lagi la nk buat, nnti la”

hm..sbrnya kalu nk kebenaran tak perlu takut..bila kita lakukan kerana Allah, Insya-Allah Dia akan bimbing dan tunjuk jalan yg diberkati..=) so, kalu ada yg suke atau cinta, jangan tangguh lame2. solat istikharah trus. jangan takut, jangan malu, tanya Allah yang maha mengetahui, pencipta segala alam. tak mati pon kalu solat. 2 rakaat je. pas istikharah doa skit ape nk ditanya atau yg diragui. pastu trus tido. insya-Allah dapat jawapan..selamat mencube..